Friday, March 30, 2012

Diabetes is.....

A pain in the ass... There I've said it. I try very hard to be optimistic, and opened minded about everything diabetes throws our way. But every once in a while we have nights like tonight that just leave me wanting to take a break from Diabetes and give Clifford some well deserved vacation time from D!

3 site changes, 1st didn't stick, 2nd he said was hurting him, checked and it looked as if it wasn't sticking right so I pulled it (at bedtime no less), bent cannula with blood in it. Stupid diabetes. Before pulling the site, he was high 289 (no ketones though so thought just a fluke) apparently insulin definitely went through with the bolus we gave because he was 65 30 mins later... Really 65! Ever have one of those moments you just want to go back to bed and start the day all over? Yeah that's diabetes

Diabetes is...
  • Confusion
  • Exhaustion
  • Overwhelming
  • Heartbreaking
  • Scary
  • Impossible
  • A moocher
  • Nagging
  • Never ending
  • Overbearing
  • Emotional
  • Gut wrenching
  • Guilt
  • Sadness
  • Shame

But diabetes is also
  • A smile
  • A hug
  • A kiss
  • Compliments
  • Friends
  • Family
  • Love
  • Understanding
  • Compassion
  • Joy
  • Strength
  • And so much more

Yeah once in awhile you have a bad day like our day today and get pissed off at diabetes. But there's always tomorrow, the sun will be shining, and you're given a chance to start all over. Diabetes never place fair, it never sleeps ( I really wish I had it's energy), and it's just a thorn in your side that won't go away. But like a thorn that causing pain and hurt you tend to get used to it being there. It' will never get any easier, but it will get better.

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