Saturday, January 29, 2011

A wave of Blue!

If you are a member of the DOC you will notice an unfortunate scene today, blue candles. Five separate families this week have had to deal with the worse possible situation, losing a loved one to T1!. ! 28 yo mother of two, a 25 year old, 16 year olf, a 9 year old and a misdiagnosed 18 month old baby. This is the fear that is in the back of the mind of many of those affected with diabetes.

It's really hard to wrap your mind around the idea that a horrible disease just took them away from everyone that cared for them. While at the same time, we are here fighting the good fight against D and I pray and rejoice every day we are here fighting. It doesn't make it any easier when word of another T1 death spreads. I feel for these families, and my heart breaks for them. I hate D more and more if that is even possible when this happens. But it also makes me want to hold my boy that much more tighter, and soak in all the time I possibly can with him.

These people and children along with many others are an example of why it is so very important to find a cure now! Not tomorrow, not next year, not in the next 10 years, but NOW! It's hard enough for me to sleep at night just with constant worry that something will happen when I'm sleeping and not checking. But at the same time I battle the thought of "Over worrying" about him and what's going on with D. Besides his childhood has been interrupted with D as it is, I want him to be a kid for as long as possible. He already carries a burden on his shoulders that none of us will ever understand. He will eventually have to carry this burden and manage the monster on his own, but for right now I want to make it just a little bit lighter.

So for now, I will continue to pray for a cure harder then I have before, and will hold my boy that much more tighter. My thoughts and prayers go out to these families during this difficult time. And D if you're listening which I know you are, you're always around, Fuck off!