Looking through tomorrow's adult Sunday School discussions, I saw we were discussing "Why does God allow suffering". This really made me sit and think because we all know when dealing with Diabetes our faith is sometimes tested. I previously wrote a blog post titled God and Diabetes . It was my way of letting other's know that I struggled with an answer to why God would choose to let my son suffer daily with a disease there is no known cure for. It was a true test of faith, the biggest test I've ever had to encounter.
I've learned in my readings that you have a choices to make daily, whether that choice is to be happy, to work, to love, to be angry, bitter, or to let Diabetes put a hold so tight on your life that you will never know what it feels like to be happy. I don't know about you but Diabetes already has the upper hand in our lives, and I'm not going to let it take control more then it has to. Back to the daily choices, there are many I choose daily, but the most important one is to "live". I understand it's hard when dealing with D to comprehend why God would make the "choice" to have D enter into your life. But think of it this way, I'm not going to sit back and just "deal" with D. I'm going to make sure we do our very best to make sure it's not taking over Cliffy's life more then it has to. I'm also going to do my very best to make sure we advocate, and work to find a cure. I don't think God would want those working on his behalf that will just "deal" with what he's placed upon us. I think he wants only the most determined individuals helping each other by working to the ultimate goal of a cure, an end of this disease. For this reason I feel God chose us that are touched by D because he knew we wouldn't just "deal".
Great post....I think about all of this a lot too. I have definitely cried out to God and asked him why since her diagnosis. It's especially hard since it is a child that this was put on. It's hard to think about why a child would have to suffer.
ReplyDeleteIt was very hard for me in the beginning because children are innocent. And when they are given this fate it's they who suffer more then us, it's their body. But I tend to try to look at it this way. Cliffy is strong, and I've seen him develop more strength now in dealing with D. He's not going to let D be his whole life, and I know he will do what it takes to fight for a cure, if that means become a doctor, and be that doctor who discovers it, so be it he will do that. He is destined for greatness, with or without diabetes, it just so happens that this is the fuel for his fire.
ReplyDeleteLately, every time I see someone writing on this topic, I am reminded of something Beth Moore said in one of her Bible Studies. If you never have to overcome something, you cannot appreciate standing on top of it with His strength. I know that's not word for word, but it's the gist of it. It's ironic that as a young adult, I felt cheated because I didn't have a "gritty" testimony. Nothing had ever really happened to me that I had to "overcome". Boy, be careful what you wish for sometimes, right? I've got a miracle of a testimony now! God bless :)
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I remember feeling really abandoned by God when Tom was first diagnosed. Later that year, I wrote about it and suddenly saw that really he was right there helping me through and that my faith in him had deepened. It was a pretty wild year for us but I look back now and see that I really matured a lot in my faith.
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